When it’s not love, it’s fear (how to tell the difference in dating)

I was at an event several months ago.

The facilitator asked the audience,
“What’s the opposite of love?”

A few people said “hate”.

Then someone, not even loudly, just said,
“fear.”

And you could feel the shift in the room.

People started nodding.
A few more voices agreed.

It just… landed.

And that moment stayed with me.

Especially when I started asking myself, is this actually love, or is it fear?

Because I’ve had moments in dating and relationships that felt like love at the time.

And looking back, they weren’t.

Is it love or fear?

It was more like…

I’d meet someone and suddenly they were on my mind all the time.

Checking my phone more.
Re-reading messages.
Noticing how long they took to reply.
Trying to work out what they meant.

I used to think that just meant I liked them.
That I cared.

But it didn’t feel calm.

Quite the opposite… it felt chaotic.

It felt like I was trying to stay on top of something.

Like if I paid enough attention, I wouldn’t mess it up.

This is the kind of intensity that can get mistaken for love, when it’s actually fear.

I wouldn’t have called it fear.

I called it love.

Checking = I like them
Thinking about them = I’m interested
Wanting clarity = I’m being honest

That’s what I told myself.

But really it was more like:

I don’t feel safe here.
Something isn’t right.
There are red flags…… I’ll ignore them.
My own instincts…… I’ll ignore those too.

Because the intensity felt like connection.

It felt like something real.

And if I’m honest, my brain loves that intensity.

That focus.
That pattern-spotting.
Trying to work someone out.

Especially being neurodivergent, my brain notice things.

Changes in tone.
Timing.
Energy.

It’s like it’s constantly asking,
“What’s going on here? What am I missing?”

Looking back, with hindsight (which usually only shows up once you’ve seen the whole pattern), fear really did take over.

Fear of getting it wrong.
Fear of missing something.
Fear of them leaving.
Fear of not being enough.
Fear of all the “what ifs…”

What fear looks like in dating

Because when your nervous system doesn’t feel safe, your brain goes into problem-solving mode.

It’s not trying to ruin things.

It’s trying to protect you.

Figure it out.
Stay connected.
Don’t lose this.

So when something good starts, it doesn’t just feel nice.

It feels like it’s meant to be.
Like, what a perfect match, they get me.

But then…

The overthinking comes in.
The checking.
The analysing.

That quiet feeling of needing to know.

But what I didn’t realise at the time was… I already knew.

I knew it wasn’t right.
I knew it wasn’t meeting my needs.
I knew it was time to call it a day.

But then something good would happen.

And all that knowing would go quiet.

Still there… just harder to hear.

Until my needs weren’t being met again.

What love actually feels like

With hindsight came different questions:

Am I in love, or am I in fear?
What is my body actually telling me?
What is my gut instinct, that knowing, it deserves to be heard.

That’s the difference, I think.

Fear feels like you need to do something right now.
Fix it. Figure it out. Make it safe.

Love still takes effort,  it’s a doing word. A Verb
But it doesn’t come from panic.

It comes from something steadier.

It doesn’t mean everything’s perfect.

You can still feel unsure.

But it doesn’t feel chaotic.
It’s not that constant buzz.

So maybe the opposite of love isn’t hate.

Maybe it’s fear.

And a lot of the time, that’s what’s going on.

Not that there’s no love.

Just that there’s a lot of fear around it.

I still catch myself doing it sometimes.

Checking.
Thinking.
Trying to work things out.

But now I notice it.

And that’s usually enough to take a step back.

If you’re reading this and thinking,
“this is what happens to me

you are welcome to book a free chemistry call.

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